You may have noticed by now that I am not posting as often. I wish that I was, but the fact is when my choices are spend time with my kid, sleep, or write a blog that I am fairly sure no one is reading I tend to choose a or b.
Cruz is now 7 weeks old. I recently spoke with two old friends that asked what parenthood is like. The only way I can describe it is as follows.
Sometimes the little dude is pissed and you can't figure out why. You bounce, sway, sing, put in a chair or crib, and whatever else you can think of. It's frustrating as all hell and baby cries are kind of like waterboarding. Then the one thing you do works. You look down and see the baby go content and smile, or just close thier eyes. Your heart melts and whatever frustration there was just goes away. You realize that there is nothing more important than that baby, that moment, that amazing feeling that is being a good parent.
I have never enjoyed so much or felt as rewarded as I do around our son. He's the coolest ever. It's not just him. Looking at the impact he has had on me as a person is amazing. I think I might end up being a decent person after all. I look at my brother and see this guy that used to beat on me and see one of my best friends laying on his back trying to entertain the person spitting up on him. He's an outstanding uncle, and Cruz is lucky enough to have 3 uncles that are that way. And the grandparents... Forget about it. It's so cool to see all of them finally get to be the grandparents they have always wanted to be.
But the best is my wife. She has always been the best part of me, and that continues now. I love that woman beyond words. It has been so amazing watching her go from being a wife and friend, to being a mom. Some people just excel at certain things, and she is amazing in this new roll. I am so lucky to have her for a spouse, and Cruz is such a lucky little shit to have her as a mom. What a wonderful, amazing, patient, and caring mom she is.
So I am sorry that the posts aren't as often, and probably won't be as funny. Except that I am not sorry at all. I have diapers to change and a little dude to entertain. It's a great life.
